I'm pretty tired, I think I mean a bit 'down' rather than tired, but doing OK... I really like Wellington, still,,, If only the rest would fall into place so well!! The job is good but I'm not learning anything new and I am a bit bored really...
It was really odd, I was going out with someone for 2 months and not only was it weird during the relationship, but it's the relief I felt when he broke up with me!! I obviously wasn't that into him... He was the most unfulfilling person emotionally and the most silent person about his feelings that I've ever gone out with. In hindsight things may have been different if we'd have been friends before we started seeing each other, his way of putting it when we broke up was 'you were too unsure of yourself' well of course I bloody was, I never felt I knew where I stood with him and if you don't say nice things like 'i think you're sexy / pretty / have the best eyes...' or even ' you make me feel hot / great / ..' blah blah etc etc then nothing can grow... What did he expect??? I said a few things that I felt - and I'm not normally the first to reveal my feelings - but it clearly didn't help! The sex was great though!!
Was and still am bit curious about an ad I saw in the local paper. It was for a high class escort where you choose the hours and the people... I won't do it. I think deep down it would end up making me feel worthless, or it would when I was down and I don't need any help feeling worse in that area!!
I feel like being a bit mysterious tonight. I just bought a new dress, black, with a sweeping neckline. I now have black hair too which looks good with a plum / wine red lipstick. I also have an invite to a new bar...
