@ 07/20/09 – 13:47:08
... but sadly doesn't bounce back so much as squish when thrown...
Ha!
What I really wanted to talk about was grief - yeah, now you've stopped reading, I know...
Sadness
Loss
A hole inside you
Anger
Despair
Then what?
Is it acceptance?
A kit kat?
Right....
Urphhhhh
@ 07/19/09 – 21:45:48
I was sad it didn't work out
he called that a negative phone call the next day - well yeah dips*it
left him feeling down, what a joke
nothing to say after that
enjoy hurting me
I've had enough
he's pushing me away
I don't need it.
If he wanted me he had me.
@ 07/19/09 – 11:33:31
... that I've had enough. I'm happy and I'm sad.
I wanted a fairy tale and didn't get it.
That's OK, I know.
I just wanted it to be simple. I don't deserve this.
I wish he could've been part of it. It's OK and it isn't.
Why don't things turn out how you hope them to? I'm not someone full of insecurity.
I don't doubt, I don't scrutinise. Why doesn't it work out?
I'm OK, but I just had a different door open, a door that could've led to other things. But it's closed, it's not enough, it's not what I want,
He just represented that door. A false door.
Why do I want someone to share my life with. Why can't I just not hurt and be myself and not need or want anyone.
It's OK.
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